it's in my nature to be really wary of nothing but myself. the way I act, the way I speak, the way I carry myself, the way I look - the way I appear to others. recently, I've met so many new people (being in a new school and environment and all) and it has been great. I have to admit that I do love making new friends, although things can be slightly awkward. that's another thing very much in my nature - making new friends. not being good enough for things slipped my mind for months. how accepting and comfortable I am right now and as of secondary four made me forget and oh boy did I love how I forgot. but recently, the thought has started to creep back and I can't make it stop. it feels familiar, as how it used to feel, and I hate it. what am I supposed to do when the thought no longer is "I'm not good enough" but rather "I'm not good enough for you". it's horrid and raw and stupid, so stupid. I feel like such a fool for feeling like this - for having felt like that - about something that should be insignificant.
I guess the right words for this would be
y OU neE d tO gO o oOO aWA y forever