And finally, I've met friends that I could not-talk to for ages but know that they'll have my back no matter what. It's like, if we realise there's something quite off about each other, we'd cheer each other up and check on one another privately through text and stuff. It does feel a whole lot better knowing that there will be people to catch you when you fall, or rather just give you nice hugs and help you back on your feet. I'll never forget that once when i was sobbing so hard during national day celebration and they just sat there with me and cheered me up HAHA it was so strange because they didn't know why I was crying but that didn't matter at all, they made me feel better anyway. When I just want to talk about anything, I can. I feel like I finally don't have to think twice before saying anything because I'm usually so afraid of judgement- even from my closest friends. It's like I actually have friends who truly understand me and love me for who I am and not who I try to be. So grateful, I've been waiting for friendships like these x